16th December,

totally a boring day!
I want to ask him out. but he would totally reject. so just wait till he say so bah..

13 December,

I hope that u can go, I hope to see u there. :)

9th December,

I dont really know about my feelings now a days.
Sometimes, I could be just dreaming ahead.
I wont get a chance to be with him I guess.
I dont ever get a chance isnt it?
will this feeling last?

離開難道真的是解脫,
難道真的要事過境遷了以後才懂?

7th December,

going out with xinghui :)
post more later :)

28th November,

Today was normal, went for wedding lunch with family.
bored..

19th November,

Going cca constantly as a good kid normally does! :P
But deproved alot & got scolded :(

I moved on! Yes!!! HAHAHHAHAHA!
Dont pull me back as history repeats, i might go back when I was in the past but now, I wont..no longer. :)

BYEBYE!

16th November

Sorry for not updating the blog! :X
Alot of things happened during the past 11 days.
Hmm, recently I feel empty.. well in the sense of no directions of everything.
"LOVE" was quite true for me :P
我爱你，你爱他，他爱她，她爱他
你爱我，我爱他，她爱他，他爱她
How true could this be?
to me, I think its 99.999999% true!
cause my current situation percentage is, 0.000001%

Tags reply!
Cher,: tagged, Hey. . Missya. ._. Tc.
15 Nov 10, 13:15
I miss you people too! hang out soon! :(
iam-stoneage: hello! tagged!
Thanks! :)
Have a nice day! GoodBye! :)

5th November,

Today, rot at home.
watched Death Girl, its a nice show!

Sometimes, I was thinking that maybe I should not have tell you how I feel at the very begining. Its my mistake, choose to tell you. I have not think of the otherwise.
I wish I could replay my life, I wish I can change things & I wish that I could have plenty of chances for me to retry.But nvr gonna happen.

4th November,

Once, you were there but the next thing was you are gone.
No longer the one whom I could say nearly everything to you.
You are gone, forever.

Tags reply :)
3 Nov 10, 20:02
ShiYing: Sist , Cheerup . I love you . So , please cheerup (: Come & taqq me if you are free
JoLin; sorry will go there soon when Im free :X
3 Nov 10, 19:56
ツXINGHUI: Tagggggggged my dear.
JoLin; Thanks! will spam your soon. :P
1 Nov 10, 20:04
Stoneage.: aiyoh! y u so emo. omg. cheer up ok. ^^
JoLin; Am I tht emo? LOL! Thanks :)

1st November,

I surrendered, now my life are in a big mess.
Once I told myself, Last time when you need me, I will be around for you but you choose to push me away to a very far end and go away yourself.
Now, I no longer able to trust you cause Idw to go back alone,all by myself.
My heart was now broken and no longer normal, like others.
Telling you stuff and you bo chup.
Fine. Im leaving you.
Now, Let me be the one to push you to a faraway land and I will walk back myself, leaving you alone.

30th October,

Chermaine,XingHui,TzeLing & JiaXin, though we will be in the different class next year, but I will not forget the memories we once had. Dont Worry Girls, I will strive to get my 'O' levels with you guys! We will take our papers together & we will graduate together! Let this be the time for us to be seperated and meet again really together for the future! Im always here for you guys. Thanks for everything that happened during the past 2 years in my life, I will miss you people even the unhappiness we used to have and was solved. :$ Our Friendship starts from that day till the rest of our lifes! :D
I Love you people! ♥

28th October,

Yeah, promoted to sec 3 successfully!
Fun!!
Need work very hard from now on!
byebye!

27th October,

Tmr getting back report book! :/
having talk till 8 plus!! ><
Will we still be there for each other when we need each other?

I had shown u my strongest side ytd and today. I showed that I dont care about you anymore, but even a blind man can see that its so fake. Did you realised the smile I will normally have has gone? My mind need a rest,I have been saying craps for the whole time, now I will choose to leave you. Alone.

26th October,

2 more days, its gonna be the end of the school.
Till next year, school life will then begin.
Read finished 'To forget you' and moving on to 'You Are Here'
I want to forget you but I cant,the only way I can do was,
try not to remember you.

Fake smiles were placed on my face cause, Idw you to see my weakess side.
Telling you that Im alright cause, Idw you to be guilty.
Telling you I had moved on cause, you might think that Im still missing you.
Running away from you cause, I dont wish you to see me shedding single tears.
I always wanted to show my cheerful sides but, I would prefer seeing you smiling just for me.
That was my greatest dream.

22nd October,

Mum's Birthday!
Had cheese cake with choco on top.hmm, fattening!!! :X

Today, school was a boring place! Without laughter my life are like the colour og black & white!
Had Frisbe Competition today! You guys did a great job!
nvm if we didnt get in the finals for cham,
When back Jp with Claudia and Gideon! :D

Mr blahblah~ I miss you, seriously I do.
Everytime when I think of movie,
it reminds me of tht scene! hmm,
I should have give up earlier on.

20th October,

Today really very sian,
Lots of Talks!! D:
In need to find people to buy ticket from me!
hmm, I want him to go sia, D:
haiz, its fated.

if I could let you go, why not?
but my heart just cannot bear to let you off.

19th October, Doomz day!

Omg! My result is like so kns! Wtf.
what the hell had happen?!
suckish hate today.
seriously Today its really My doomz day.
Idk lah! fuck sia, idw retain leh! knnbccb.
If i retain, most probably i wont be carry on study in Jss, mayb going specialised school of music or others. FUCK.

18th October,

I love today!
Text him along the way to City Hall!
and while eating thn nvr reply~ PsPs!
took lots of picture today!!

I love my Sisters ttm! :D

17th October,

Last night,
I dreamt about u,its kind of weird. but I cried in the end.
I dont dare to tell u what it is about,
I scare u will be further away.


Tears will dry away but the pain will nvr go away.

15th October,

EOY ended officially! Finally, after this 2 weeks of pressure!
Went WCP today with Xinghui, Chermaine, Jiaxin, Tzeling & Kehan.
Reached there around 3 plus!~
Played Flying Fox! Very high lor~
outcome was alot of mosquito bites and a bruise!
Had a long day there!
Before going back home, went mac to apply for job!!
Hope everything will go smoothly! :D

Dont expose my deepest secret, I know sometimes I tell lies but
it the best way to keep the same situation.

14th October,

Today was rather a peaceful,but a heart breaking day I guess?
Maths Paper 2 was a disaster! well that's was what I called a heart-breaking day.
Went out with Jenny, RuiJun, Sandra & Cassandra today! :D
(L) them ttm!
had alot of fun! took some pics! :)
Gotta meet them go barrage someday to fly kite!

little secrets between u and me are now unimportant.
If I ever lied to you, I lied to myself.

13th October,

Today was rather a day when things just go opposite as what you think I guess?
I remember someone told me to give up and some ask me not to.Things had been changing since the past 2 months I guess, maybe some ways of thinking.
Its meaningful when you are doing things that you desire.

Idk what to say to you but what I have been trying to say was, We are friends.
I have open up my mind, knowing what is my real feeling.
I'm sorry to say but I think, I may have treat you as a substitution.
But mostly I wanted to thank you from bringing me out of the sorrow~
Thanks alot. :D

01092010, this was the date which I first see smiles between u and me, but no longer.